A Piece of my Mind...

I'm pretty random too...not seriously though(shout Sherrie..), but really....here's a glimpse into the randomness of how my mind works...and a bunch of other randomness that I can't really define. Whatever.


- I LOVE old school R&B...esp. 70's -90's.
- Right now I'm belting out Pure Soul "We Must Be in Love"...remember that??? Thanks Teej.
- Uhp, went off. Rewind.
- I can actually listen to a song and completely feel it as if it totally relates to me at that very moment...I should be an actress. You should see me right now.
- I record myself singing on voice memos all the time. At the time, I think they sound amazing...but once I forget about them and go back...I chuckle at how completely ridiculous I sound. HA!
- I'm actually distracted by the song right now, I need to get back to the point of the blog.
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- Man, I got bit by a ferocious mosquito, I have all type of marks and red spots..this never happens
-...I hope I don't have the damn West Nile.
- I don't really trust doctors so I doubt I'll head there.
- I shan't speak that into my life.
- Well, hopefully typing doesn't count.
- You liked my contraction, didn't you.
- I think I'm pretty clever.
- As far as I'm concerned, I think everyone else agrees.
- I got a random call today from an "ex"...
- he had me open a bit, it was kind of surprising...I'm usually in such control.
- That's alright...I think he's figured it out, I'm brand new.
- Ya girl's back...take it easy, son. There's a seat over there waiting for you...
- Have one.
- I hope he's not holding his breath waiting on that call back.
- Again, have a seat.
- Ha...I'm so cool.
- Doesn't matter what you think, I've completely convinced myself that I am.
- Ha!
- I love blogging, I'm just so random with it all ..it's hard to sit down and write one.
- I promise I'm gonna get together.
- I admit it. I DO want a boyfriend...I'm tired of being single.
- I think I'm ready for at least that. The aforementioned taught me alot about what I want and what I need to work on.
- I appreciate the lesson because I can guarantee if I'd have had to sign up for the course...
- I woulda missed out.
- 'ppreciate ya!!!
- Now back to your seat, dude.

Okay, this must end...I think I'd be a little thrown with this choppy list so I'm gonna try and focus in on one topic. I know that changes the whole concept of the blog, but not really...I did say it'd be random.

Sidebar: I'm listening to A.D. 2000 by E. Badu. Now I remember having a convo w/ 2 of my best friends back in college on how deep it was and how she was probably talking about how after a breakup things are misinterpreted and one party ends up looking like that bad guy, yadda, yadda. Man, that chick was actually talking about a building. Boo, Erykah.

Anyways, as I was saying..I do want to have someone just for me. Someone to release all of this loving energy upon...he'd really come up, ya know? Just because of where I am right now...they say it's all about timing, right?

I'm settling right now...isn't it crazy how you can find yourself doing things you never thought you would? Not really, we are all only who we see ourselves to be. There are no innate differences b/w me, you, whore, crackhead, at least not in terms of what we are capable of doing/accepting...we just all have different visions of who "we" are. It's okay to stray here and there, but as long as we hold fast to the ideal...I think all will be well in the end. You can't allow yourself to lose yourself... Who's to say I'm right, but who's to say I'm wrong.

So again, I feel that I've strayed away from myself a bit, but I'm trying to get it back. I'm kind of torn b/w feelings and reality. Most of my friends tell me that I'm very detached from my feelings...I'm learning that they are right, I'm working on it But I guess that's b/c I feel at the end of the day feelings are just feelings. They don't necessarily change what "is" and if they don't then what's the damn point? I understand they are necessary, usually expected, and should be considered...but besides that...what? I don't know, I'm open to exploring the idea of them and in turn becoming a better communicator. It's been a challenge for me. I work on me, daily, even if only in my mind. Somethin's better than nothin'.

So again, I'm not loving this place right now, but given there are so many other places I could be..I respect it, and I'm not gonna run from it. Yesterday's FC would have, I'm brand-new. Thing's will be what they will. My mom encouraged me to know and appreciate these words of wisdom...

God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

How did I get here...I'm SO random. HA! At least I warned you...