Let it go...

1.) Was gonna do an intro apologizing for the hiatus, but hey..just let me list.
2.) I just left Teej and Dave's event...it was hott like FIYA!!!
3.) Renee(formerly of Zhane) is the truth...I'm feelin' her.
4.) Seems like she's had a heartbreak a time or two...
5.) who hasn't.
6.) Hell, if I could sing I'd be hollerin' "Wrote a song about it, like to hear it..."
7.) Yeah, that shit would be Fiya too...Trust.
8.) In my mind...I'm a little Jill, with a smiggen of Beyonce', topped off with some Mary, a dash of Lauryn, and touch of En Vogue.
9.) I know...you can't even imagine it...it's THAT real!!
10.) I shuts 'em DOWN!!!!!..yep, in my mind I do.
11.) I kicked it HARD this vacay...time to retire for 'bout a month I'd say.
12.) Went out last night and saw like the entire city of Chicago...
13.) And it was only maybe 25% filled with red plastic belts, leg warmers, and goofy busy sweaters.
14.) I was surprisingly pleased, even if only for a moment.
15.) Chicago nightlife is rarely pleasing...promoters, I love ya'll..it just is what it is.

Uhp, got a story to tell...I saw this guy out last night. I stare, he stares, recognition sets in, an gleeful "Hey"...but then the invitation stops. I notice that he's one of my Church members who I tend to see often b/c we're both pretty active in church. I knew I knew the face but just assumed it was the change of clothes that threw me off. Can we say, "uncomfortable?" Yeah, I'm sitting here...pretty fly, yet pretty inappropriately dressed as far as 'church' is concerned, not revealing...just accentuating the positive a bit more than usual. Also, I'm standing in the dumb drink ticket line as well so let's just say I wasn't really open to conversating with church member right now. So I did my 'Hey', four finger wave and then just let it trail off from there...no go over hug, no come talk to me look...it's a wrap. It's not you...it's me.

So, as the night progressed I'd catch Church member in my peripheal and just kind of mosey so that I could no longer see him. This, I would believe, he wouldn't notice. Why? B/c I wasn't over the top with it and again, he's done nothing to me...I like Church member he's cool. And in Church..you get all the love. At the makeshift 'club' (event, whatever)...not so much. Way too uncomfortable for me, not like I hadn't had this happen before, but last night: uncomfortable...I don't know. May sound heathenish, but....whadda you want me to do...I'm sorry.

Why did I wake up this morning to an epiphany...Church member was not my church member, but this guy I dated like three years ago!! I received confirmation when I reached church today and walked in right behind the real church member...who I might add looks NOTHING like alleged Church member. Maybe b/c I hadn't seen him in so long I was trying to place him and that was the first thing that came to mind? Who knows. But ain't that a trip? I hadn't seen him once since we stopped dating. I felt like a COMPLETE idiot and he probably thinks I'm the biggest jerk.

Such a shame too, b/c when we dated I was pretty young and couldn't appreciate him at time(23 vs. 30)I really don't even remember the fall out of it all...hell, I'm not trying to rekindle the flame but a dignified hello I think was warranted. Ah well, such is life in the big city.

16.) I saw this chick last night who used to be a potent...Eunita I think was her name.
17.) Random.
18.) Nothing has changed about her, and I mean nothing. She finally made it over....
19.) well, good for her.
20.) So funny that some people let organizations take over their lives.
21.) I mean, I love mine all day...however, I don't scream it from the hill tops.
22.) I say, find something to do...but maybe that's just me...I was already 'defined' before I became a part.
23.) Good for me.
24.) I made my first sweet potato pie(s)...let's just say it was a TASK.
25.) Boiled potatoes, peeled them, whipped em' up(though they weren't as done as necessary), add ingredients(off the fly, b/c I'm just that fly...YEAH RIGHT...I really do swear sometimes), place pies in oven, remove them...
26.) Sample, toss one out. Add more brown sugar and butter to the pies(yes, they are in the shells and have been baked, you are not crazy)....mix in ingredients, smooth them out to disguise the fact they they've been tampered with...rebake for 20 min.
27.) Viola...pretty good damn pie!!
28.) HA....and as Jade would say...
29.) (to Roomie) 'Thank you for believing in me!"
30.) Don't hate...I'm just exposing the truth....yo grandma probably did the same thing!