Love is all we need...

I know it's been awhile, and I'm probably too new to have taken such a hiatus. Sorry, what do you want me to do? Anyways, I do understand why it's always me...ALWAYS ME. Can I just lead and live a simple life, you know...a job that somewhat inspires me to get up and go to it, a nice-looking guy that loves my dirty draws, steak and lobster at least once a week. You know, simple dammit!! Guess not, or should I say, not yet.

As usual, I present to you: Drama. OK, where I live parking is horendous. Now, anyone familiar w/ Chicago knows that parking can be an issue...the Oak Park area is like 5 times worse. You can't park on ANY street w/o some type of voucher or permit, and only during the hours you pay for, yadda, yadda. Long story short, I racked up a good amount of tickets. What can I say, rules become confusing...I'm just tryin' to live.

So, back in July I paid an obscene amount in tickets. That was after I concocted a sympathy plea and cried a few times to knock off a few of the fines. I really should be an actress...I mean, there were times when people would go and get me tissue b/c I couldn't even talk. I know, it's a shame, but you do what you have to. So, cool, I paid my tickets end of July...home free until 4th quarter beg. Oct 1st.

I go to get my new permit and lo and behold, I have issues again. Something about me owing fines on some of the tickets I'd paid, etc. Anways, those totaled to over $500...now was I liable for maybe 2 or 3...yeah, but that's besides the point. I'M NOT PAYING SHIT!!!! Damn you Oak Park, I got shit like lights and food to worry about..kiss my ass.

So during all of this guy we'll call IFFY has helped me out b/c he's over the dept. After things we're squared away he'd called once or twice to make sure I hadn't received more tickets and my other "issues" we're going well. So, of course, I seek him again today. He's basically like, "don't worry about it, I'll take care of it". Cool. He asks if I'd go w/ him to see Ray this weekend. Yes, I said I was busy the next 2 weekends(I'm so not interested) so he says "well what about during the week next week." I say "fine". I guess it's the least I can do, he's been a big help.

He comes back, he'd cleared all my tickets and I owe nothing. WHHIII-HEEEWW!!! Go head, it's my birthday!! Then he says he has something for me he'll be back. He hands me an envelope that reads..."I wrote this for you 10/04/04. I hope you like it.

I've Fallen for you...

There is softness in her voice that makes me want to rejoice. The kindness in her heart beats a loud and has that type of rhythm that calms me down. I've fallen for you.

She has no idea the effect she has on me and it's no wonder why I say her and me have to be there is no place else I would rather be than all snuggled up with her next to me. I've fallen for you.

The tenderness of her touch is locked into my memory and never could those thoughts ever get dim to me I hope every day you continue to be good to me and I pray every night I continue to be good to she. I've fallen for you.

My eyes have been blessed to see her beauty and even if should ever I fall blind her beauty I will still see I really wish you could understand what this means to me. I've fallen for you.

I wish we could synchronize our hearts to beat as one for I always want to feel what you feel when it's all said and done. Life without you now would definitely be no fun. I've fallen for you.

You are everything to everyone and I can prove it you are a mom, you work, and even take care of your mom I think that should do it. I wish I could be like your body's life fluid. I've fallen for you.

Seriously though getting back to the poem's message I only want to love you once that is my mission and in the end if we are together forever then I learned all of my lessons. I've fallen for you.

You are very special to me and I hope I can only be as special to you. For the air I breathe is you, you sustain me, contain me, and maintain me. I don't drink or smoke yet I get high off of your perfume, your scent intoxicates me and keeps me drunk with desire for you I inhale you for you are pure and your every intent is genuine and sincere. I've fallen for you.

I hold you dear to my heart and hope one day soon you will be a part of everything great I do right from the start. I've fallen for you.

-IFFY

First off: Yuck! Then, UGH! Followed by, YIKES! Who set me up? You've got to be kidding me? I thought he was gonna come back up w/ a free parking permit not this madness. Somebody, anybody...what the hell is going on?!

Let me address your thoughts: No, I didn't leave out any of the story. Yes, I've only been around him 2/3 times briefly. No, I don't have kids or take care of my mom(how random?). Yes, this was my first day back in since July so I don't know why he was thinking of me 10/04/04. Yes, I am just as baffled as you are.

Synopsis:
Ok, I'm trying to convince myself that maybe he wrote that for someone else at some point. Maybe since I said I'd go to the movie he thought he should "impress" me and make me think he really liked me. So, lightbulb goes off and he thinks about the title of his poem to his ex "I've fallen for you..". BUT, he wasn't thinking about the content b/c if he HAD he wouldn't have given that ridiculous, stalker-psyhopathic letter.

s.R swears that he's concocted this idea of he and I having a relationship in his head and he really believes it. She says "you can't think like a crazy person." Let's not forget that she feels she's an expert b/c she watches Lifetime.

Anyways, it's definitely kinda out there. I'm just trying to hope that I don't have a nut on my hands and that somewhere down deep he thought it was cool to give me someone else's poem...
please let me be right.

I told my mom, and she say's "damn, I just prayed last night for someone to come and love you and be everything you wanted them to be." Ain't that some shit? We both agreed she needs to be more specific next time.