Today...

.I'm feeling a little blue..
.I thought I wanted to vent, now I'm not so sure.
.I'm a really private person
.Maybe different could be good...
.That's probably just how I'm feeling Today.
.With a sea full of friends, sometimes I feel like I'm sailing solo.
.Am I bugging...?
.Is my period about to start..?
.Yep, it is.
.TMI?
.It's my damn blog, go read somewhere then!
.I often don't feel like I have a right to be down..
.I guess, in theory, everyone deserves a moment...
.I still feel the same though.
.sR is in Miami.
.I wish I was as well, I'd probably feel different right now.
.Not saying it couldn't resurface..
.But at least I'd feel differently Today.
.Many crave attention, attention's just normal to me..
.Actually, I'd prefer to be "seen"..
.No one has "seen" me in a long time.
.I'm trying not to lose hope..
.I'm sure on another day I could be more optimistic.
.not Today though.
.I'm tired of lick lipping, subtle opps to cop a feel, hearing the word "sexy", pipe dreams, false hopes, shallow intentions..
.sick+tired=me
.today
.probably tomorrow as well.
.I just noticed I took a deep breath..
.maybe I'm feeling better.
.so much to do, so little motivation.
.CAN I PLEASE GET TO THE POST OFFICE!!
.procrastination is a bitch.
.I felt inappropriate typing that, though I'd have no problem saying it.
.Society is a bitch as well.
.didn't feel inappropriate that time.
.where am I going with this?
.either everywhere or nowhere fast.
.guess I should spare the typing and mentally motivate myself into the ideal of "me".
.It's hard trying to achieve "her".
.The real me is lazy, often.
.I morph into "her" well though, hopefully one day my metamorphosis will be complete..
.and I can become "her" for good.
.Will that be enough?
.I guess we'll find out when I get there.
.I have alot to be for alot of people..
.however, I have no time to complain.
.Time is of the essence and...
.the fact that I am blessed serves as a diffuser to my complaints.
.often, thank God.
.again.Thank you.
.Today I felt like venting..
.I'd like to go on, but I'll keep the rest of my thoughts were they are most comfortable.
.
.hopefully, I'll revisit this spot again soon.
.It is mine, ya know?
.I guess we'll see, if not...no biggie.
.This[blog] has no bearing on "her", this is extra...
.so whether I accomplish this or not.
.doesn't matter.
.I smirked on that one.
.wish everything was that way.
.such is life..
.still smirking.
.I feel better.
.and I think I'll share.
...smiling.
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