Melancholy Me..

It's a listing day...

- Why am I so wishy washy about this party thing?
- I'm sure I'll feel better tomorrow, I guess it's really not even that big of a deal.
- It'll be fine.
- I was gonna see if I could lose a quick 6 pounds given that I haven't worked out in seems like ages.
- Dress actually looks better this way.
- Good for me. Where's the ice cream?
- I feel like such a crazy person, I have a phobia!

De-activating the list for a quick blurb:
Freshman year of college, a student died from meningitis. They told us to be mindful b/c it was an airborne disease and you could catch it from people coughing, etc. Well ever since then I have been RIDICULOUS when it comes to coughing. It's not like I'm thinking about contracting meningitis, but I can't remember being like this prior to that incident.

I absolutely cannot sit in a car with a coughing person without rolling down the window, if people cough around me I hold my breath as long as I can and actually get completely annoyed when I'm caught off guard and feel like I can't hold my breath like I'd like too.

It's so crazy, because at church I REALLY tried to not do this but there were so many sick people. It was such a disgusting shame b/c I was trying so hard to concentrate on my prayer but this chick behind me and her daughter CONTINUED to cough. To the point, where at one point this chick coughs SO damn hard without covering her mouth that I felt the cough hit me in the back of my blazer!!!! I WAS SOOOOO DISGUSTED. Of course, you know I had to turn around and with the blank-wide-eyed-stare. I made sure only to glance, I did the best I could to not even do that but before I know it my neck had whipped around and hey...what can you do. YUCK! So of course the rest of service consisted of sitting on the edge of my seat, breath-holding, and constant fanning with my church bulletin. Thing is, I really enjoyed service and felt that it had the vast majority of my attention. There was this small part that no matter how much I tried..I couldn't forget the coughing chick was behind me. That's what brought me to my conclusion. Sad, sad...not as bad as when I was in my real estate class and interrupted the instructor to ask if I could open the window. This chick sitting behind was coughing so profusely that it was either that or I was getting the hell out of there. Sad, sad.

Yikes, super-long tangent.

Reconvene:
- Just when I thought I should let go of the dream...I get just a little. The little keeps me at bay a little while longer.
- I guess the picture didn't hurt either.
- If it's a game...I'm detached enough to still enjoy playing.
- I'm going to ATL in a week or so..I'm so excited!
- Can't believe it's been so long.
- Hopefully I get to spend some QT with one of my best friends.
- We've been a little different since the baby.
- I don't know if it's her or me..but things have changed.
- We used to talk a minimum of 6 times a day.
- I think it's me.
- Don't know how to fix it though...
- but maybe it don't need fixin'..
- may be just fine as is.
- The only thing constant is change.
- Another kid went and shot up a bunch folks at school.
- Crazy...I swear, people act like they can't take anything.
- You got bullied...SO! Somebody said something you didn't like...SO DAMN WHAT?!
- These parent's are making their kids' feel way too important. You're just a person..get over yourself, life's so much bigger than you.
-[shaking head]
- Ooh, my best friend's husband just called and said he may surprise her with a ticket to come hang with me on my birthday.
- That would make my day!!!
- That's the bomb...I love my friend's husbands'..they're my brothers.
- It's imperative that my future hubby compliment the group..
- Make time to live, a little/Don't let this moment slip by tonight/You'll never know what you're missin' 'til you try/I'll keep you satisfied, if you stay. - Save Room, John Legend
- I think I'm gonna try out for the Dance Ministry.
- How cool is that!
- Of course I already have an idea for a dance..
- Don't know how much they'd appreciate me coming in trying to run the show.
- Ah well...I'll suggest it anyways.

Enough for the moment. I'll be back when I really have something to talk about.